I am about to share something I’ve never shared online… Probably because I´ve never been ready to do it. I already shared my healing journey through self-love here, but my biggest self-love lesson was definitely the one I am about to share with you now. A burn accident that happened four years ago while I was living in Singapore, but that I only had to really face last year.
I will never forget the day of 9th June 2013. I was at my kitchen in Singapore when a big explosion happened and burned all my left arm. Luckily it was only my arm, the other areas affected were covered with my clothes. I was home alone and in a new country where I didn´t know anyone. I didn´t have credit on my phone, and Daniel and our housemates where at University. When the explosion happened it was very scary – I started screaming, I went to the toilet and started covering all the areas affected with water and knocked my neighbours doors for help. Luckily an old Chinese couple drove me to the hospital. I ended up with 1st and 2nd degree burns that took a few months to heal. In particular one burn took one year to completely heal, and when finally healed (I was already living in London) it left a big keloid scar, which I tried everything possible to remove – from magical creams that promise remove scars, to surgeries and even laser therapies, but nothing seemed to work.
Now I know that these were just messages from the universe telling me how much I had to love myself deeply and unconditionally no matter how my physical body looked.
But, believe me, it took me a long time to finally get the message! When I was living in London, my scar was covered all the time, so I completely forgot about it and focused in healing my auto immune disease with the best nourishing things nature could offer and this just happened because I choose to love myself. But only when I moved to Dubai, where my arm was always exposed, I had to really face my scar and truly work on my self-love on a deeper level.
I was still trying all types of procedures to remove the scar, it was really difficult for me to finally let go and accept. So, one more time, I had to really focus on loving myself. I had to look in the mirror every single day and repeat “I love and accept myself deeply and unconditionally”. And I am absolutely sure I just completely surrender and embrace self-love last year when I choose to wear a dress that showed my arm on my wedding day (until then it was really hard for me to use a sleeveless top). That’s the day when we want to feel at our best, the most beautiful ever. And it was then that I finally embraced my body – looking back I never felt so beautiful! Since that day my scar almost completly heal! I believe the universe was waiting for me to accept it to finally heal me.
Now I chose not to cover my scar anymore, and when someone ask me about it I explain with a smile on my face. I choose to see the beauty in everything and to be grateful for my scar, which reminds me how much I have to love myself and how much I have to inspire you to do the same.
I am sharing this because I want you to know that perfection does not exist and it will never exist, but we can really chose to love ourselves unconditionally every single day. So, just remember that your weight, acne, cellulite, scars, whatever it is, will never define how amazing and beautiful you are – these just make you even more unique and special. It´s time to embrace your imperfections and inspire everyone around you to do the same.
Thank you so much for always reading my words. Now, it´s your turn! Do you struggle with your body image? How can you choose self-love today? Share in the comments below!